Today is Friday and I am ever so glad of it. Although, I had Monday off of work, and have been so blessed to have a short work week, it has still seemed as if were a longer one. While I am thankful for my job, I STILL miss being able to just be a "STAY AT HOME" wife and mother. Yes..I know...my children are grown now, but being at home to cook, clean, take care of my home, and to now be able to make all my full attentions focused on my sweet hubby, and SO MUCH MORE, and (honestly) have more time to blog, write, read, relax, have lunch with a friend now and then....AH YES...those were the days. Yet, "this" is obviously the road in life for now, which my sweet Lord has planned for me. I shall not, nor do I regret in anyway being so blessed as to have a good job, and to be able to be of such a good help to my darling hubby in anyway. When "ALL" of his overtime was immediately made to be a thing of a by-gone-era (except for the terribly rare weekend over time which is nearly NON existent) and it was painfully clear that inflation and a lousy economy reigned supreme, and our fundage was not sufficient to take care for all our needs and extras, then I did what any "good" wife (who loves her husband and children & is grateful for all he, my husband, has done to provide and care for our family and longs to be a "help meet" to her husband) would do.....I got a job... again, just as fast as possible.
If you remember, it was at first (with this being my first time back to work in many years) a part time job with the Asheville Boy Scout retail shop, then the Lord saw fit to move me into my current job at the radio station. I think I shall always (deep at heart) remain a woman who's desire is to be at home and do all the many things that make-up being "a stay at home" wife and mother, which is part of my heart and my being. This has always been my deepest hearts desire even from childhood.
Having had a childhood where my father & mother was never really ever at home, and even when she, my mother was, being there with us, being actively involved in mothering, cooking, cleaning etc., these things for her were never anything she really wanted nor enjoyed. I have always known that my deepest longings were to marry the man of my dreams (done √ ), be a mother to those whom God would bless me with (done √ ), to love, enjoy, & appreciate the greatest job and gift of being a "good" wife and mother with a fully committed heart to do so, this was my dream from childhood.
The Lord has so wondrously blessed me in years past with having always made a way for me to be at home when my babe's were at home. My jobs...here and there, were always done around the needs of my husband and my babes. Substitute teaching full time for over 7 years, owning my own cleaning business for 11 years (till health made that one problematic), all things were done around my family, and my family always came first!!!!
My family still comes first yet it is still strange to me how things change and children grow up, and move on with their lives. My son..."the Marine" who is hardly ever hear (insert huge pouty face HERE ! ), and our sweet daughter (although still living at home) she works such LONG hours, she is hardly ever home either. But wife and mother are STILL my primary positions in this life.
Now I work full time, and have finally reached a place where I am truly content to stay in this job at WKJV, where the Lord has placed me. ALTHOUGH almost daily my heart still longs to be at home. THIS is what I do best. But, I am a full time working wife and mother, trying to balance work, hearth & home, health, church and more. Gee, I need another "me"...LOL.
The contentment (except for the occasional bad day at work when I want to run out the door screaming at the top of my lungs "I QUIT"!, which are now fewer than before...LOL) I am most content in my job, and I see that this "IS" where the Lord has me to be. I NEVER thought I would be in this place of contentment with "THIS" job. But I do wish my work day and work week were shorter. Oh well...can't have it all can I??
I have floundered and flip flopped back and forth in the daily management of home and work and all the many tasks of keeping both running smoothly. Just because one does not have "little" children at home any more, does not mean daily household chores & the caring for my husband and our home become easier or less. They are ALL still here, and still need doing. My sweet hubby & I have found something of a good rhythm in things (most of the time...LOL) but on the days when my Rheumatoid Arthritis & Osteo Arthritis are out of control and painful, everything changes. Oh well, this too is my life and I still daily need the Lords help to handle this too.
I could not imagine being able to make it through ANYTHING in this life, this world, today's society WITHOUT the Lord at my side and in "my corner" as they say.
Well, there you have it! Today's version of Ronda's Randomness from deep with-in!
Time has come again for me to go and get ready for work, and all I keep thinking is....
I hope you
"Have A Peachy Keen Day"!
Love & Prayers,