At times in my life, my heart is so full, I feel as if I were standing on top of a mountain looking down at my life, and I think.....How Lucky and most Blessed am I! How good God has been to me, yet I am so undeserving! Yet I just enjoy the view anyway! Loveliness, peace, joy, and a happy and full heart.
How did I become so blessed.?
I guess many people tire of my writing about my children, yet, except for their father, my hubby Bob, they fall into second and third place in regards to important people in my life.
I received probably the sweetest email from my son yesterday morning that has most likely ever been written.
He was talking about how much he missed Bob and I, and his sister, and of course he is missing his Kandace very much as well. Yet it was some of the other things he wrote to me, that had me in tears. Tears so full, and falling so fast, it was hard to read. He thanked me and Bob for many things, for the way we raised him....right, in church, and having tried to teach him all we could about the Lord. He was thankful for us being his parents, his friends, his guide in this life, and much more. He told me he was praying for me and my health, and a few problems/side effects I am having because of the Methotrexate (chemotherapy med) that I take for my R.A.., and he encouraged me in that he knows God is in control, and that God has a purpose for everything that happens.
My Bobby is the one who has been out to sea for weeks now, we have been emailing him, and trying to encourage him, and what does he do.....
He sends the sweetest email letter ever. One that has me in tears half way through it. Tears of joy, love and a full heart. He tells of how much he loves me, and thanks God everyday that Bob and I are his parents, and how lucky he considers himself to have us!
My heart was far beyond full. I miss him so! Yet, I am so thankful to my precious Lord, for all the things He is teaching Bobby - our little redneck marine.!
I am constantly amazed at how God, at various times in the lives of our children, catapults them forward, and through this and that, our Lord molds them into the adult He wants them to be. It does work far better if the child is willing to be molded, and is not resistant to the changing and forming of them that is taking place. However, I just stand amazed and shocked, with my mouth hanging open as if being ready to catch a fly, when I see the final result of one of these changes to which Christ gets all the credit and praise for. Then I see what has transpired deep within my child, and the evidence of those inner changes comes to the surface for all to see.
The "Man" my son has and is becoming at times is overwhelming to see. Part of me still sees the sweet little 3 year old Bobby, who while being stuck inside our home for two weeks because of a snow storm in 1993, he was caught playing in my closet, and came out wearing one of my Easter hats, and having my white scarf draped all over his face and neck, wearing his blue pj's and a smile, turns around to see me looking at him. He was scared that he was in trouble. Yet Bob and I could only laugh. I asked him "Bobby, just what are you doing son in mama's closet?" He smiles really big, and says..."I'm goin to chooch (church), I miss chooch, and peechin (preaching)" then turns and runs into the living room all adorned with my hat, my scarf, and only then do we realize he was dragging on his feet...my white high heels! So funny, so innocent, so ready for chooch. Forward now to 2010, my son is 20 years old, and a Marine, and ever more of a man than this mama's heart and eyes sometimes have the ability to see.
Yet through an email letter, I am blessed to see another side of..my son...my Marine...my little boy who is now a man! A man who has "still" a tender heart, a gentle heart, a loving heart, and a heart full for God, Family, Home, and Church,and now a heart in which we see more than ever.....gratitude, thankfulness, appreciation, even more faith in God, deep inner strength, compassion, and he is even more accepting of God's plans now than his own, and so much more.
Google pic...."Father and Son"
My husband had also received an email letter from our little redneck Marine yesterday as well. Bob emailed me a copy of it, then called me and asked me to look at it right away. So as I was reading the email which our son had sent to his dad, I could hear my big burley masculine husband....sniffling. He was also moved to tears because of the things our Marine had written to his dad.
Things such as " dad if I can ever be half the man and father that you are then I'm a lucky man. You have always been my hero, the one that was there for me, and the one who is still teaching me how to be a man!"
This touched my Bob more than words can ever describe. My Bob, who oh so often feels as if he should have done more, been more, provided more, or just more....? To have his son say these things to him, meant more to my Bob, than I think any other words Bobby could have ever said except "I Love You". He/Bob, has never felt as if he has done enough or been half the man he should have, although my children and I know far better than this. Yet these words having come from our son, and having been so honestly written to his father, have touched my husband more than Bobby will ever know. There was so much more in that email, of like things, but that shall remain between father and son.
As I watch our children continue to grow, change, and become more and more the person God wants them to be, I stand amazed. No, nither of my children are perfect....no one's children are!!! How ever, I am just beyond thankful and grateful that God continually works in the hearts of my babe's, and is still catapulting them ever forward, and making the changes in them and in their lives in which HE knows will produce the RIGHT outcome that He desires.
Our Sweet Possum is going through many things right now, and God is working in her heart and in her life. He is by her side, and she knows she could not have made is through these past two or three months without HIM! She, our possum, our little girl - now a woman, tender hearted - yet so easily hurt, compassionate to all - yet many have been so ugly and hurtful to her, yet so she is strong, and contiues to be so loving to others, our little girl is being allowed to go through some things right now, and God is teaching, helping, molding, and ever by her side. Yet I still adore her inner strength, her ability to forgive others, especially when they are ignorant of what their actions have done or will do. Her deep sense of compassion for all, and her ability to NOT judge others, but she is accepting of everyone, just as they are, and she prays for them and for God to make the changes He sees fit, and not just the changes she desire's.
Oh How I Love My Two Children!!!
Oh What A Blessed Wife & Mother I am!!!
Oh How My Savior Has Blessed Me and My Family!
Oh What A Full Heart I Have This Day!
Love & Prayers,
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