Today I am happy, and my "mothers heart" is excited!
Yet, my adult obligatory, working female side is torn!
I "finally" received an email from my son Bobby... our little redneck, our Marine!
He and his other marine fellas have been out to sea, and the whole group as well as the pilots have all been practicing maneuvers and stuff...not sure really what they do, but I do know that it is all in preparation for when they are ALL sent over seas after Christmas...be still my heart! Anyway...!
We found out a few days ago that our little redneck was able to finally get an on board email set up while he is on the ship, out at sea. Praise God!
Bobby's girlfriend, Miss Kandace, whom our little redneck had contacted first....of course. NOT his parents, not his sister, but the one whom now has his heart so gently in her hands. Oh Well...this is the natural way of things, when a young man falls in love, and begins to think of the pretty young woman whom has ever so sweetly stolen his heart, and he is glad of it, his parents then fall into second and third place in his life. But this is OK, for that is the way our precious heavenly father has designed it to be. Bob and I are happy anyway, she is a lovely young woman, equally, inside and out! She has been raise right and well, and we adore her and her family! I am just ever so glad that at least Miss Kandace keeps us up to date with our little redneck Marines current happenings!!!LOL! Thank you Kandace!
We are all hoping and praying that our little redneck marine will get to come home very soon. The ship is coming back a little earlier than was originally planned. So, in anticipation of this, Bobby, who wants to see his Kandace, has already put in for some leave time. Parents and child are now all trying to co-ordinate getting him home! If he gets leave time during the week he has put in for, I will be both happy and sad.
Happy, I will be, that he will be home....and yet....also so sad for me, because that is the week of our next Share-a-thon at the radio station. That is the week in which I will be working 7am to 7pm....about 84 hours total! I will most likely by the time I get home, only have energy left to eat and sleep. For that week, for me, is terribly long, hard, unbelievably exhausting, and way beyond stressful! Last springs Share-a-thon, found me, the week after it was over, I found myself very sick, and in bad health to be quiet honest. I am full of mixed emotions. My son may be coming home, yet I am the one who will not be fully able to enjoy his being here. I will not have time to cook for him, as I normally do, and love so much to do for him. I will not be able to do hardly anything at all with my family....which to be honest is becoming something of a more serious issue for me deep with in. Something which I am, and have been, praying about! Praying for my Lord to help me and give me direction!
I am most glad and willing to do what ever the Lord wants of me, even if that means physically pushing myself way farther than I really should, or am normally able to, in regards to my health, should that be what He (the Lord) needs of me. My heart problem is this.... twice annually, at the very least, I (and all those of us who work and volunteer at the radio station) work more hours during share-a-thon, than most people I know. I am away from my home, my husband, my family, and my church even more than normal. As it is now, I have difficulties making it to services most Wednesdays, because of time constraints, and health. This....I do not like! But I keep going forward, and I keep doing all I can, on my end, to help my husband and our financial situations! It is however truly taking it's toll on my health, and my R.A., and somewhat on my emotions as well! Remaining and holding onto my "Peachy Keen attitude and outlook, is often proving to be a bit testing!
It is this mother's heart which will be torn, and less filled with joy, should my baby boy be home that particular week. I do so like my job, and I am glad to serve and work where ever my Lord sees fit, but my family is my truest heart, my greatest joy, and deepest sense of belonging and obligation! My son, I rarely get to see anymore, now I truly find myself betwixt & between the most difficult of feelings, responsibilities and obligations.
When my son leaves for overseas after Christmas, he will be gone such a very long time. So, our times with him NOW, are few and far between, and becoming so much more important, and ever more precious to Bob, Christina, and I, as well as Bobby's heart...aka...Miss Kandace, everytime we are with him. This is also part of my problem.
Yet, for today, I am happy, and my maternal side is contented, and so very thankful to my Lord to have been able to "read" a few words from my son, my heart, he, who is one of two, living and breathing extensions of me, my heart and soul, and the love Bob and I have shared together, and been so blessed to have given life to. Any words, written or spoken, sentiments shared, thoughts and feelings conveyed in anyway, hearts over
flowing, and communication extended in any form from my adult babies, this precious to me, and to Bob also.
Today I am happy, and my "mothers heart" is excited!
I shall not let the confussion of, nor the complications of, other commitments cloud the joy of today!
I love and adore my husband so, and we two, both love and adore our two children.
Living, breathing, touchable, huggable, kissable, birthed into being,
extensions of the deepest love between man and wife.
Oh how God has blessed!
To be parents, what a blessed thing God has given to us!
Children. I Love them so!
Love & Prayers,
Ronda
Have A Peachy Keen Day!
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