Wow...what a week that was!
Our friends have now finished their move into their new home in another county. It was a long, busy, and hard week. Moving day was.........long, hard, disappointing and difficult. That's all I'm going to say about that...or else if I do...I will say to much. All I will say is, God helped those of us who were there to get them moved. What a lovely neighbor hood they moved into. Country side to be seen for miles, apple trees, gardens, horses, and much more. They are very happy, and I am happy for them.
My house is in complete disarray. I have started trying to get things back into order, but that will take a day or two before all is clean, tidy, washed, folded, put away, sanitary, and organized again the way I prefer. I am taking my time, but it will get done.
Yesterday at church was our Homecoming day, with singing, preaching, and dinner on the grounds. Everything was just lovely. God was there with us, and he blessed me many times, touched my heart, moved me to tears, and He wrapped His loving arms gently around me and just loved me. My precious Lord dealt with me about much, and He gave me comfort as only He can give. Comfort concerning many things in my life right now. The preaching was.....just what we/I needed to receive from God. What a lovely day.! For the rest of the evening my hubby and I spent the evening here at home....just with each other. That was just what I needed. God blessed me with such a beautiful day. Beautiful in spirit, food for body and soul, church family, friends, fellowship, and fun. Thank You Lord!
Today, along with all of my household chores that need my attention, I do have so many things on my mind. Things that are bothering me, things I'm sad about, things that I want to change, things that I am trusting my sweet Lord to be in charge of, things about me that I seeking God's guidance and direction for, things that I am praying over concerning some friends who need God's touch in their lives....right now....and quickly...as only God can do, things concerning my son.....Bobby who is now in California on yet another military base, and we are not sure just how long he will be there?.
So....you see....my house is a mess and my mind is terribly preoccupied with many things.
I still struggle with-
Feeling so disconnected from so many things and so many people.
I still find myself pulling back farther and farther away from more and more people at times.
Wanting NOT to be hurt, wanting only for my life to be filled with joy, peace, happiness, & love, especially from my Lord and my darling hubby and my precious children.
Wanting to be separated from all of the drama and discord that seems so prevalent these days.
Wanting to get away from people who never seem to have anything happy or kind to say or to talk about.
Wanting to be apart from those who belly-ache and grumble all the time.
Wanting desperately to NOT be apart of the grumbling, yet hating it when I take part in it!
Wanting Christians to be more kind and compassionate, wanting to see more selflessness for others, and less selfishness with-in themselves.
Wanting to see more Christian kindness everywhere.....and that includes from me as well.
Wanting and needing to make many changes in myself, yet they will only be permanent with my precious Lords loving help, gentle guidance, and conviction deep with-in my soul.
Recognizing that my flesh is pathetic, and in-adequate in more ways than words can say, and knowing how many changes need to be made, things given over to God, sins confessed, so on and so on.
Admitting that I am not very good at admitting all my wrongs, or all my sins, and all the other many things that my sweet Lord so patiently awaits my confessions of, and my giving of things to Him!
Gee.....guess I have much more than a house that needs to be thoroughly cleaned out....huh?
Maybe my first priority for this day and this week should be, the cleaning out of Ronda?!?! Then the cleaning up of my home?!?!
**For if I am a mess on the inside,
then it matters not what is on the outside**.
(quote from......me...Ronda W. Thank You Lord for giving this to me!!!)
This is true for both our house of flesh, and the house with-in which we dwell.
What do you look like on the inside???
Love & Prayers,
Ronda
Have A Peachy Keen Day!
